lost and found

Over the years we all make friends that come and go. Some of our friends are forever, some of them are just for now, some of them flit back and forth.

In my early twenties I had two male friends, both Alphas, who I both loved dearly. But I had a falling out with one of them over a girl I introduced to him.

Is it an irony that she and I are now 'friends' on Facebook, but I that I have no idea where the guy I really cared about ended up? It didn't end that badly. After we made out apologies to each other we were just busy. He'd moved to a different city. We drifted apart, as they say.

Periodically I Google him, as he has a distinctive name, but he appears to have no online presence.

Except for tonight.

Tonight I found a short ad on Gumtree, directing people looking for him to email the poster. Initially excited, I've been left feeling that it wont be my friend that I hear back from, but someone else. Someone who will take it upon themselves to tell me some bad news.

Frankly I want to know either way. I hope I hear from him personally, but I'm not banking on it.

UPDATE: He is still 'missing'. I have not heard back from the email(s) I sent. Oh well, I shall live. See. This is me living.